1:43 i mizz you.

i'm reviving this.

i watched youtube videos for 3 hours.

i'm a hermit again.

i just want to be alone.

i love daul kim, and i miss you.

so tortured. so pretty. so honest.

twisted dark soul kindred spirit.

i got you.

21:34 i want to be raver club kid.

i dont really live in the future anymore.

but i like this blog's name. so i'm just going to keep it.

im back. back. back. america.

anyways.

ive been doing some stuff but in general. i have had some time.

thinking about things and people i havent remembered lately.

i knew this woman. i think shes like early 30s.

who was super smart. like in crazy mathematical way.

but underneath she was a little freaky. i just knew.

its hard to explain but i just knew it.

one day. she tells us she used to be freaky.

she shows us these pictures of how she used to be crazy raver clubkid.

like tunnel. like rupaul era.

and then i watched this move party monster. its crazy raver clubkids dressed like drag queens on crack. eating a lot of ecstasy at the tunnel. listening to dj hixxy hardcore trance.

it looks so good. so decadent. so stupid. so ugly. and so amazing.

i want to live in year 1998 and rave.

i mean i was 12 at the time, so i could have done it if i wanted to.

but i was such a cliche at the time.

i still am.

but oh well.

so this week i listen to 90s hardcore trance.

i know people don't really like it.

but thats because you dont understand.